3 miles and a Breakdown

I read a fellow marathoner's blog last week and about how emotional this marathon journey is and how she had a breakdown. I read about it thinking that yes, it is a very emothional journey, but wasn't thinking I was going to have a breakdown. Well, not so. I guess I just had so many worries about this marathon and today I let it all out with a good cry. The main stresses are what I'm going to wear :), and how my back and knee are going to hold up, mainly my back. So on Sat. my back took a major turn for the worse. Go figure, one week before the race. I got my marathon mommies shirt that I ordered in the mail and it was bigger than I had hoped. It was just too much at the moment and I started crying. All of my worries just got the best of me. I got a hold of myself pretty quickly, thank goodness. I realized I could make the shirt work and I iced my back. (Not that it helped, but it made me feel like I was doing something.) Then I went to the gym and ran three miles. I just couldn't skip it, mentally. So I'm really not sure what to do about my back, but I don't feel like I can do much, so I just am praying for a healing miracle between now and Sat. Maybe you'd like to join me!!